Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Why Don't You Remember?

I remember you sang this song for me.. and your tears came out from that adorable eyes.. and now, what happen?
Now I'm the one who want to scream this song at you..

When will I see you again?  
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said  
No final kiss to seal anything 
I had no idea of the state we were in

I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness 
and a wandering eye 
and a heaviness in my head

But don't you remember? 
Don't you remember?  
The reason you loved me before  
Baby, please remember me once more

When was the last time you thought of me?  
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I would roam
More I do, the less I know
But I know I have a fickle heart 
and a bitterness and a wandering eye 
and a heaviness in my head
But don't you remember?  
Don't you remember?  
The reason you loved me before  
Baby, please remember me once more

I gave you the space so you could breathe
I kept my distance so you would be free  
And hope that you find the missing piece  
To bring you back to me

Why don't you remember?  
Don't you remember?  
The reason you loved me before  
Baby, please remember me once more

When will I see you again?

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Lord, Please keep making me.

Make me broken, so I can be healed.
cause I'm so calloused and now I can't feel
I want to run to You with heart wide open
make me broken.

Make me empty, so I can be filled
cause I'm still holding onto my will
and I'm completed when You are with me
make me empty.

Make me lonely, so I can be Yours
'till I want no one more than You, Lord
cause in the darkness I know You will hold me
make me lonely.

'till You are my one desire.
'till You are my one true love.
'till You are my breath, my everything
Lord, please keep making me.

I found this song last month, and I made this my prayer. I keep singing this song everyday and He did it to me and He still do. 

Thank you for teaching me so many things in this last 2 years, God.
I'm not gonna say all things that I had was completely a mistake, but what I believe is You were teaching me the best lesson in my life through a lovable yet irresistible person.
Thank You for always loving me, Dad. 
And now I've let go the need to know why, for You know better than I.
May be knowing I don't know is part of getting through.
I put my trust in You. You know what best for me, for him. 
And I believe this is the best for us.

I Let You Go


There are people who can walk away from you. When people can walk away from you, let them walk. Don’t try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean, hang up the phone.
When people can walk away from you, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody who left. The Bible said that they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19] People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can’t make them stay.

Let them go.

It doesn’t mean that they are a bad person; it just means that their part in the story is over. And you’ve got to know when peoples’ part in your story is over so that you don’t keep trying to raise the dead. You’ve got to know when it’s dead.
You’ve got to know when it’s over. 
I believe in good-bye. It’s not that I’m hateful, it’s that I’m faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He’ll give it to me.

Thursday, June 6, 2013

another thank you


Thanks for letting me go. Even this heart will never want to let you go.
It's sad to know that people change so fast just like seasons. It's like just yesterday we were happy together and now we are apart.
But, I'm happy you moved on. I will be happy when you're happy. Because you do deserve it. :)
Yeah, this is life. The world still turning. We have to move forward.

Once again and for the last time, i wanna say, 
Thank you for teaching me what is love and what is hurt.

from the one who never stop loving you,

by the way, don't worry I'm on my way to move on.

Friday, May 17, 2013

if it's meant to be, it will be.

If you ask me, don't t I remember the reason I love you before? 
I do. And I always do.
If you ask me, when the last time I thought of you? 
every day. every morning. every night. every single time. 

You just don't know how lovely you are.
But today,
I just realize that i should stop wondering why this things that we called 'us' will never gonna work in the first place. I believe that we both know that. I realize that some things are just not meant to be no matter how much you want it.
How sucks!
But this is the truth. 
The door that we closed, we can't reopen it. 'Cos some doors are meant to be closed, and when we try reopen them, we remember why they were closed in the first place.

I'm sorry. For everything.

Friday, April 26, 2013

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

I give up.

Setelah terakhir gue ngeblog, I said I would never give up on us. 
But now, I give up. I don't see any hope for us in the future.

What's the point in second chances when people will never change?
Some people will never change, no matter how much you wish they would.
This fact is hurting me. But I have to accept it and let him go.
Your best efforts will never be enough when your best efforts are being wasted in the wrong person.

At this point I realize I have done too much for you, that the only next possible step to do is stop. Leave you alone. And walk away.
It's not like I'm giving up, and it's not like I shouldn't try. It's just that I have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.

I bet one day, you will realize that you were throwing your diamond.